TIRED I AM

No sense, no rhyme scheme but I had to type it out

I am tired of being the me I am
Tired of being tossed around
I am tired of being nice
and tired of being sweet.

I am tired of being understanding
Tired of never being demanding
I am tired of being adjusting
and tired for being taken granted

I am tired of these sleepless nights
Tired of being never understood
I am tired of being alone
and tired of false hope.

I am tired of dreaming dreams
tired of keeping promises
I am tired of this world order
and tired of trust being shattered.

I am tired of being an emotional fool
Tired of people moving away
I am tired of faking that smile
and tired of hiding the unsaid.

Tired I am of this life.

A telephonic conversation

Its not a very refined creation and even I didn't like it myself but what the heck I just posted it...

It never goes away, the haze
only gets hopleless, the maze
because I can never give up
thinking thoughts about you
never seizing thoughts about you.

Something I ask, a question
is it clear, my intention?
no way I see too ascertain this
that I too cross your mind
maybe once through your mind.

It's a dangerous duo, two lives
living it while, one dies
together slowly and suddenly
there are many ways to end it
and very few ways to mend it.

So why waste it, the time
we can enjoy life, in its prime
I won't promise nothing
let it be; you and me
and some world and we.

Talk with my life

I don't know why but brain starts working at a higher fidelity near the exams for some unknown reason...But who cares, its so much fun to write...

So next one is a fictitious talk with my life... 

    

Don't let me say it out loud

Because then I will be the crowd

Then is it, when it is

nothing but ambient sound.

Listen to me i don't wanna shout

can't you deaf just read it out

its all there spread around, darkness

in a no-mans-land during a blackout.

Time is ticking and lot has gone

still to the expectation i hold on

feel it, then say it too

in a milli i will live an aeon.

Am i a part of you or you a part of I

silly thoughts that keep coming by

I am blind,i've got the arrow

just come rushing with the bullseye.

GOODBYE

I am a little high while writing this, don't know exactly how it is coming out...maybe would delete it when I come back sane in the morning


Hey honey do you know I weep
unfelt feelings u cant feel
its all you, awake or asleep
un-ending non diminishing zeal

But every night a drop trickles down
cascading into my mind from the frozen dreams
reminding me what is left behind
a treasure I will never again find

the future holds a promise
of certain dreams being wheedle(-d)
Don't know how my clock will tick
without you its fastest needle

Fracture my heart and then burn my soul
If something remains throw it in the hole
Time is cold and dark, piercing like a dirk
Life is a guilt machine which doesn't work.

As every day turns to tomorrow
it turns my heart to push u away
when you are the one I kept closest
my life anchor now aweigh

All I used to love about me was you
and it would remain with me like a flu
you were one thing i liked to believe in
trust, love n happiness were all akin.

Kicked...Fall...Learn

What have I learnt from the past, four things in the chronological order, lmao:
1. Don't be afraid of trouble.
2. In everything in life timing is very important.
3. Stop searching for perfection.
4. Never trust people blindly.

Turns

Yes today totally unwillingly I got a job. It was one of the things that was fucking me day in and out since I entered my last lap before attaining the silver cup of age. I am satisfied because I got a job pretty much the kind of work I wanted, but on the other hand disappointed to leave Mumbai and more importantly its residents.

I actually don't know whether I wanted to stay or leave. But one thing I surely know that there are much important things I look forward to following in place in my life. I hope this event signifies a turn.

The Coin of Curse

When you are living by just two principles in life; the two sides of the coin:

1. Hope for a change, hope for fulfillment of some wish
2. Overlooking the facts or clear observations

You are bound to go down in the drain.....